crushed

I told the guy I like that I liked him.

Okay, it went like this:
Basically, I texted Daniel last night and asked if we could talk today before we leave for break.
I was nervous as heck, and honestly didn't want to verbalize it to his face.
But then he asked what I wanted to talk to him about. So I told him
"I just want to tell you that I don't want this to change things unless you want it to change things... whatever happens is your decision, I just need to tell you this."
He looked at me weird and said "ok"
I basically said "I have feelings for you, I like you. I wanted to tell you before break so we both have to think about it and everything"
He looked at me like he was in pain and said "do you want a response now?"
I replied "no, you have thanksgiving to think about it, unless you already know the answer and there is no decision to be made in which, yes I would like a response, but it doesn’t have to be immediate."
He again looked at me with pain and said "I don’t know... I don’t know"
I sarcastically said "I don’t know is your response?"
He replied cautiously and sweetly "I just don’t feel like that towards you, I just don’t think of you like that"
I said "that's okay. I’m sure you knew this was coming."
He nodded
I said "I just wanted... I needed to get this out. But I kind of already knew you didn't feel the same, and that's okay"
Then there was an awkward pause and he continued talking like it was no big deal and what just happened hadn't happened.





I really hope we stay friends