I'm going to camp until June 20!!!
If you are totally awesome you would mail me a letter- you can get the address off my facebook.

silence, I'm not a fan.

This will be a calm post.
Dear Frontier Camp, I GET TO BE THERE IN THREE DAYS. I can't wait to be in that place.

Okay crazies over, time for an update. It's weird here in the house today because the babies are at daycare and it's quiet... I leave in three days as previously stated, so this will be my last post until late June. But no worries, I'll still be blogging... it'll just be blogged in a book with adorable owls all over it in my sloppy handwriting. And maybe I'll highlight the best parts and post here in late June.
Honestly, I have so much to be doing other than blogging buuuut I felt the need to update. I found this awesome sight that a guy from my church started that helps devotional challenged humans stuck in the web out. It's called examen.me as in examine yourself-- I don't know the whole story behind it. But, this site has opened new doors for me. There are sections for devos and sections for prayers-- I'm going to print out the basic process of the "center out" prayer and take it with me to camp. I also have to pack, do laundry, clean up my mess, and move. Props to stay at home moms here because I couldn't do it all day. Oh and decorate my new trunk, yippee skipee. I guess I should go work now.

Grace Day 18
1. A brand new phone (blackberry) which I got for free because my brother bought one and verizon is having a special on those, and I only have to pay 30 a month.
2. I get to be at camp in 3, yes just 3, days.
3. I found a new modest concealing swimsuit (which is difficult these days) and it was way cheaper than I expected.
4. My new pants will be here today.
5. My parents bought me a trunk for camp.

I have a lot more that I'm blessed with, but I really need to go work.

i slept in my own bed...

So I leave for camp in T-minus 4 days. Who came up with T-minus anyway?
Oh and I'm not ready at all. After this semester I have been so exhausted that I just kinda crashed when I got home and I think I'm still recovering. However, I am super pumped about camp. I'm really excited to get to see everyone and also to be challenged. (I feel like that last statement could be taken like praying for patience.) Camp is always a growing experience and I really just can't wait to see the campers again. I should probably go put a load of laundry in... Accomplished.

I've been away from school for 14 days and I must say it feels like it's been 14 weeks. I miss so many things from school like just walking down the hall because I'm lonely. Or never having to watch a movie alone. I miss dancing in the student worker room at work while I'm stuffing mail. I really just miss the whole social aspect of school. It really doesn't help to know that all of my closest friends are at least 3 hours away. And I can't forget my beautiful friends that I had to leave at my old school, I'm missing them too. It's just been a miss your close friends kinda week.

On the up and up, family time has been great. I love how much closer my family has become the older we've gotten. I love being able to laugh (and cry) in a silly movie with my mom. I love staying up all night just to see a pharaoh's rotted intestines and his dagger, but making crafts in a weird building. I adore the happiness that my family wears on their sleeves now- it suits them so well. Heck, I even love when my older brother screams for me to wake up or when my dog attacks me for touching my dad's arm.

I'm really behind on these things!
Grace Day 18
1. Finishing a video to get my emotions out
2. Fantastic films with my dad
3. Free room and board
4. Four fellow family members that are awesome
5. Fine friends and phone dates

Woah, what's with the "F"s?

Can I get a Mooyah Junior?!

Well, today I decided I would go into work with mom. It's been pretty fun. We listened to The Hannah Montana Movie Soundtrack and I got frustrated and threw the billing accross the room. (I'd really like to know why my mom puts me on number crunching... hello, I can't do math!!) Currently, she is out getting her hair trimmed so I took a break from balancing the books. I noticed that my mother doesn't use recycled cups in the office, so I'm gunna have to change that.

I ate at this really fun resturaunt yesterday, Mooyah! It's like a hamburger facility and I'm gunna have to say as a red meat anti-lover I really loved it. I mean it wasn't asd good as the House Zalad at Zaxby's but it was close. Today, I was hoping to have left-overs for lunch, but I left them at home so I guess I'll go grab a bite somewhere- though I don't know where, because my calorie free day was yesterday. Pooh. Maybe I'll just go home, haha.

I'm really starting to miss my friends from school. I got a call from A a few nights back and it was great to talk, but I just wanted to sit and talk face-to-face. I know once I get to camp, though it'll be easier because camp has a way of distracting you from everything. Man, I'm so excited to be around the kids gain. And I'm super-pumped because this year I'm on a staff that has an awesome Bible study, and that is just going to rock. Oh, and I have Toms now so my feet will be super-comfy at camp too.

Oh, the wedding was wonderful. It was a crazy trip getting there and getting home but it was completely worth it. I even made new friends. Okay, time for more work.

Grace Day 17
1. My wonderful summer job
2. The self-motivation to stop biting my nails
3. The surprise on my puppies' face every time I walk in the door
4. A new phone is just around the corner
5. Mom's home cooking

Grace Day 16
1. My mom and I's beautiful laughter today.
2. I get to try a new restaurant tomorrow.
3. A new dress.
4. Not having to write in full sentences.
5. Being done with my old high school because it has gone ghetto.

The Wedding

Home

I don't have the strength to blob now, but here's Grace Day


Grace Day 15
1. Finally arriving home from the long journey, safe.
2. Getting home in time for iCarly.
3. Finding a new tasty treat from Braums (Cherry Limeade Sherbet Freeze).
4. Laughing/cringing with my dad while watching TV.
5. I got to attend my dear friend's wedding.

Wedding Trip, Part 1

Okay, so I am in Arkansas for a wedding.
Day 1: I'll begin by telling you that the drive here was about 7 hours and I drove 2 of those hours with jelly all over my steering wheel and hands, due to some PB&J complications. It was also very very long and lonely. I literally rejoiced when I arrived to the town I was staying in.
I then got ready in about 5 minutes and rushed o the bridal shower and have some advice like "make sure you have sex, it'll keep your marriage strong" and "never use superlatives." Then Kalynn told us the story of her and Shawn and how nowadays you really can get anything at Walmart- even a husband. Post-shower I went to Flying Burrito and saw "Ghosts of Girlfriends Past" with some of the girls. Oh, and on the way to the movie I had near death experience number 1. After the movie was near death number two where I was face to face with a large oak on an unmarked dead end and my car was so closely stopped next to the tree that I probably couldn't have walked between the two of them. Then I slept on my friends floor and woke up to her roommate saying, "Becca, who's on our floor?"
Day 2: I slept in, had lunch with an old friend at the beloved Zaxby's and then shopped for make-up and had a manicure (my first ever). I would tell you all about said manicure, but I'm working on being positive and nothing about that experience was positive. Then I ate in the caf- that was weird and attempted to watch Benjamin Button but fell asleep and napped until the Lingerie party. The party was lots of fun and there were a few good laughs. Kalynn was thankful for the modest/comfortable lingerie I got her and really pleased with the party, which was key. Then I left and drove 45 minutes to crash at a friend's fourplex and got lost 5 times on the way there... a few times convinced I was going to be murdered by the stalker in my backseat rustling around also known as white tissue paper. It was good to catch up with LA, and I loved her place and her comfy bed.
Day 3: I slept in a bit too late and got lost twice trying to get out of her neighborhood and then twice trying to head back to wedding town. I finally got here and it is raining, which means my beautifully planned outfit and curls may be a bummer in the end. Wedding in 5 hours and 15 minutes, and now I must go grab some kleenex for the ceremony and pray I bought waterproof.

Dear Arkansas,

I'd like to take this opportunity to tell you that your crazy, curvy, unmarked roads have almost taken my life three times in the past three days. Get signs now. I'd also like to inform you that you are a very complicated state to get around in and I have been lost ten times since Sunday. However, I'd like to thank you for still being a beautiful state, and I'd appreciate it if you could stop the rain, because I have a wedding to go to.
Sincerely your ex-resident,
Heather H.

I know I had the best day...

So today my mom and I had the most spectacular bonding day.
We went shopping (first time I've ever gone and not gotten sick) and went to a movie that we both cried in. Then, we bought a wii fit and played with it, and it was just wonderful.
I leave at 6 AM for the wedding trip and I'm extremely nervous-- I've never driven that far alone and I've never driven in the rain. But I do have Twilight audiobook, and some great jams to get me there. Not to mention some spectacular shoes/clothes that I get to wear there..! Plus, I get to see my dearest dearest friend. Seriously, if this girl asked me to go to China to see her I would.
Oh, and I forgot to tell you the cutest thing: every year my mom buys me a Mother's Day present, because I mother Luc and Lizzie and today she bought me a sundress for the wedding. I love this woman.

Grace Day 12
1. The wii fit notifying me that I lost 15 pounds!
2. A wonderful day with my mom.
3. Realizing that God didn't just gift me with one great friend, He gave me many.
4. New panties!! Sorry, can I say that on here?
5. I get to see some beautiful amazing people this week.

Friday

Grace Day 11
1. A mother-daughter outing in my Toms.
2. Running into my favorite church family at Chilis.
3. Eating salmon at Chilis (yum to the max).
4. Even though it's tough to be gone, it's nice to have people to miss.
5. Hannah Montana movie during said outing.

She wears short skirts; I wear t-shirts...

As I type this my brother is upstairs getting dressed for work, my mom is already working, and my dad is in a parking lot waiting for me to meet him to steal his car for the day. Oh, and of course my Lucas baby is sleeping behind me all cuddled up in his blankie and momma's pillow, and Lizzie is off somewhere because Ms. Grumpy Pants hates when I pay attention to her brother. I awoke this morning to my dad packing his lunch and kissing my mom goodbye, oh and Lizzie barking at me telling me that my booty was taking up too much room on the couch and she needed her space- crazy. These are the things that I have missed from home...

Lizzie pouting, isn't she adorable??
LuLu in his spot on the couch... he hates when I take his picture when he's naked. Yes, my dogs have clothes. People really never believe me when I tell them they are spoiled.
Today, I have to get my haircut and shop for a wedding. (Oh, and the fun part of this is that my dad's car needs a front end alignment so it drives real funky.) Make mix CDs for a long trip to said wedding. Wash/find clothes for wedding functions... Dress for the wedding is already owned. I also have to unpack everything from school and find a place for it (woohoo) and I was going to work out on the family elliptical, but it seems that it has been converted into a coat rack. So, I may take the babies for a walk when it isn't prime take your child to school time. I suppose I shall begin my day.


Grace Day 10
1. My brother told me he can tell that I'm losing weight, and he doesn't even know I'm trying!
2. The sound of my dogs snoring. Can you tell I've missed them??
3. Bonding with my brother while he plays Nintendo.
4. I'm going to buy a pair of "skinny pants" at Pink today to inspire me to lose enough weight to shop there.
5. This beautiful item was waiting for me when I got home. (Please excuse my flash, our house has horrible lighting.

"Hope isn't something you create; it's something you let in"

Today has been very very tough. I found out that I will fail Texas History. My professor didn't even say bye to me, even though he did to every one else. Honestly, I kind of felt like God gave me this new opportunity- a clean slate, and I just threw up/beat down/tattooed disaster all over it. Please, don't get me wrong. I have a very blessed life that I enjoy. However, I just feel like I fail a lot at it, and I know that's because I don't rely on God. It just seems like I can never learn my lesson.

Grace Day 9
Boy, this is going to be tough.
1. The chance to get to catch up with some old friends.
2. I think I did well on my Math Final.
3. A Kit-Kat Bar.
4. A little hang out session with my future flat mates.
5. Some good laughs with great girls.

I love that when my Grace Day is over I feel better about my day/life.
Maybe I'm not a total failure.

Grace Day 8

1. The four hour trip to Brenham this morning
2. My friend finding exactly enough sheets of card stock for my portfolio
3. Only three days left, only three days left, only three days left
4. I have to say that I looked cute today
5. I know it's weird, but my shave gel from Pink is amazing and it makes me smile

Today, I'm thankful for you.

Grace Day 7
1. A cute pair of Bermudas to wear tomorrow, that mask a massive tear from summer camp
2. My beautiful mother's spontaneous phone calls that cheer me up
3. The courage to tell myself that I am beautiful
4. Phillip LaRue's free song on iTunes
5. Having someone in my life to tell me that life was worth the fight


"Why" by Rascal Flatts
It must have been a place so dark you couldn't feel the light,
Reaching for you through that stormy cloud.
Now here we are gathered in our little home town.
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd.

Oh, why, that's what I keep asking.
Was there anything I could have said or done.
Oh, I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul.
God only knows what went wrong.
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song.

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old.
Rounding third to score the winning run.
You always played with passion, no matter what the game.
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun.

Oh, why, that's what I keep asking.
Was there anything I could have said or done.
Oh, I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul.
God only knows what went wrong.
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song.

Now the oak trees are swaying in the early autumn breeze.
The golden sun is shining on my face.
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This whole world really ain't that bad of place

Oh why, there's no comprehending.
And who am I to try to judge or explain
Oh, but I do have one burning question
Who you told you life wasn't worth the fight
They were wrong, they lied.
Now you're gone, and we cried

Cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song.
Your beautiful song. Your absolutely beautiful song.

Hey Stephen... I can't help myself

A little background:

• I crush on a lot of boys from a distance-- 75% of them are... not Caucasian.
• My second favorite song is "Hey Stephen" by Taylor Swift.
• My best friend, Ashley, is adorably creative.
  

Here lately I have really been craving a relationship. Not with anyone in particular, I just really want a boyfriend. I know what you're thinking-- "Heather, just wait and God will bring Him to you." Well, honestly, I've been feeling like I'm not the kind of girl that sticks out in a crowd and a guy says "that's her" about. So, how are they going to find me?!
Last night I was really emotional, and Ashley asked me what exactly was bothering me. I just let it out and told her all my frustrations and cried and I was just a hot mess. She, along with my beautiful prison ministry ladies, encouraged me and told me that God would bring Him when I least expected it. They explained that it takes confidence and a strong relationship with God. She said that God would bring my prince into my life when I was completely enthralled with God and would not rely fully on this boy to make my life good. I of course sighed because I knew this answer was coming and that was that.
Then we went to amazing Midnight March and enthralled ourselves into enjoying traditions and good friendships.

Well, this afternoon I walked into this...

Summary of the note: Here's Stephen, he's not real, but he's here for you until God brings your real prince- who will call you the most beautiful women in a room full of people"

I laughed and cried. And I thanked God for bringing me the wonderful people that have shown Him to me better and in a new perspective.


Grace Day 7
1. Well I'm drinking a Mango Limeade with real cherries :o)
2. I basically have the best living arrangement ever, next year.
3. Stephen, lol.
4. I get to go home in five days.
5. Camp is in 23 days.